Vulnerability

Wow, so I was typing out the post that has been wandering about my head and have decided that I might not be ready to be quite that open and vulnerable. As I started typing I realized that my post was taking some turns that I am not sure I am prepared to write about yet. We'll see.........

I will write about something else that has been on my mind. A pen-pal and I were e-mailing and discussing some things about life and faith. Well, we started talking about how we view God. Now, I have known for awhile that I need to work on that area, I see Him as a hard to please Father, always disappointed with me. So she was challenging me on that and as we visited she brought out how kids were drawn to Jesus. She asked me to think about what kind of people kids are drawno. Always negative and fault finding? Distant and cold? No, kids are drawn to joy filled people, people who are gentle, loving, and fun, who see the best in them. Now I tend to think of Jesus calmly and coolly putting the pharisees in their place, of Him upsetting the tables in the temple and driving the tax collectors out, of Him calming a storm, etc....... When I think of the children coming to Him and the people flocking around Him, I tend to think of the fact that He was a great teacher or something and not think about whether or not there were other reasons why people were drawn to Him. It is a new and fascinating thought train for me........ To remember what a complex man He was, but what the children saw and loved was not sternness or imminent displeasure. Also, as I read my Bible, to see just how much He loves me and asks me to be like a child. Intriguing! She also gave me a sweet example from parenting......... she mentioned how much the family loves her 2yo and that when he doesn't do things perfectly they aren't displeased with him but understand that he is 2 and will do better as he gets older or if he just needs more training in that area. They are like his cheerleaders and he adores them. Now, isn't that a sweet picture? I am so thankful that God is patient with me as I slowly learn and grow! and God as my cheerleader? WOW!!!

On another random thought train. I think that the reason I like this blog so much is that I often have all these thoughts swirling around in my head and no where for them to go. This feels like a safe place (the world wide web safe? weird, huh?) for me to put all these random thoughts. :o)

ETA: My SWEET hubby helped me get a new pic last night! So my profile pic is no longer a yr old!!! Nice, huh? He is so helpful, although I think he had a bit too much fun! ;o)