Choices

Lately God has been teaching me about choices. I tend to be a pretty passive person and I hate making decisions. I tend to just go with the flow rather than be decisive. God has spoken to me through a variety of things, of which was this post , some entries in 'My Utmost for His Highest', my Beth Moore Bible study, and various things that I have read here and there.
I am being taught that daily I need to choose to praise Him. I think that it sunk in for the first time one day when I was at Nathan's grave. I stood there crying, talking to God and Nathan, and asking God "why?". The words of a Casting Crowns song came to my head.....
"I will praise you in this storm
I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am"
so right there at the grave I told God that I praised Him, that I wanted to choose to praise Him every day, no matter what. It is a daily struggle and I often fail but I am, ever so slowly, making progress.
I also have to choose to believe Him. I am finding that it is so easy to rely more on emotions and feelings rather than faith. I want to choose every morning to believe Him and His promises. I am choosing to believe that He is with me even when I don't feel like He is, I am choosing to believe He loves me even when I am not so sure that I feel very loved, etc.... Again, I am so not there, but I am trying.

And, finally, He is showing me to choose daily who will be on the throne of my life for that day. Am I going to submit to Him? or am I going to allow self to reign? This particular battle is more of a minute by minute than a day by day.......... Oh, sometimes I try to deceive myself into thinking I have Him on the throne by trying to twist our relationship to where it is about me...... in a very religious way of course ;o)........ "I need to figure out who I am in Christ", "I need to focus on finding out who I was created to be", "I need to find where I want to serve Him", etc. but in truth the only way to find these things is to quit thinking about me and my "needs" and start focusing on who He is. I cannot know who I am in Christ until I have come to know Christ, the best way to learn about the created is to learn about the Creator, the best way to serve is to join the Father where He is working. I am thinking that the more I focus on Him the more the other things will lose importance and, in the end, I will have found much more than I dreamed possible. In Isaiah 43:7 He says that I was created for HIS glory. If I could refocus my life on Him, if my thoughts and intentions could all be for His glory, I think that everything else would fade into the background and I would be filled to overflowing with true JOY! This is, of course, going to be a daily struggle for the rest of my life but I am hoping to make it my life goal- to choose every morning, every hour, every moment to live for His glory and to keep self off of the throne of my life. I would, of course, appreciate you prayers in this. I definately can't do it on my own.