An Answer

Way back here I was trying to figure out why I was blogging....... I finally have an answer, only it is not a simple one. There have been so many changes recently that I find myself floundering a bit, unsure of myself. When I started this blog it was a place for me to write out and work through this thing called life...... It was going to be primarily for my thoughts, opinions, values, cares, etc..... Basically, me. Along the way I decided to use it for family stuff, my dabblings into creativity, recipes, etc..... Recently I went through a loss of a long time friendship and through this I lost most of the confidence I had finally gained. I am by nature a timid, non-confrontational person and not prone to expressing my opinion if it is differs from the person I am talking too. My sweet husband has spent the last almost 9yrs trying to help me get over my inability to ever speak my mind. I had finally reached a point where I could express my opinions with those closest to me and be o.k. with the fact that we did not always agree. Anyhow, I find that I no longer feel like I can write posts that are anything but light, newsy, "safe" posts. I am trying to overcome this because sometimes I really want to share my thoughts with somebody......... Right now I would say that the reason I blog is no longer about sharing who I am, but is now about having a place to post my Fix-It-Friday pics and to give me something to think about that does not include wiping poopy bottoms, chasing wild children, or cleaning house! Crazy as it is I compose on average 3 posts a day in my head................ I won't ask you if this qualifies me for a stint at the funny farm, I think I already know your answer! ;o)